I just arrived from Kathmandu and received a sad news that one of the sheep that I bought on Tibetan 15th day, the day we did the 13 koras, for life release, was killed by one of my dogs that I saved in Varanasi, during the walking pilgrimage last year. I had saved the dog from the horrible sickness and he had killed the sheep, what a sad news for me.

I am glad that I went to see them and spent sometime with them before I left Kathmandu, especially the one who just died, who was such a dear one, giving me her hand and trying to kiss me. I guess looking back now, she was trying to ask me for help, but I was not sure what was the message then. Now she is gone. I was not there to save her this afternoon, which I am feeling very sad, but I guess this is also what we call "karma".

That poor dog had to come all the way from Varanasi to Kathmandu and wait in Druk Amitabha Mountain for the sheep to come to the mountain to kill the sheep. What a karma! I am also wondering if there is anything to do with my own karma too, because I was the one who organised their meeting externally. Karma is something that you never know how to explain. No wonder not many people believe in karma.

Every part of Lord Buddha's teachings is received happily by all the crowd, except the part on karma.

Anyway, now I have just asked my nuns to do a special pooja for the dead sheep, hoping to help her on the way, wherever she is going to be reborn. I hope she will be able to come and visit me again in the next life. The thing is that even if she comes, she wouldn't be recognising me and me too may not be able to recognise her. This is always the problem with all of us when we go from here to wherever the destination is. We do not recognise each other and we often treat each other in a very nasty way, sometimes for a very small cause or for no cause at all.

Well, I do not feel very happy tonight for whatever happened just a while ago. Tomorrow I shall be okay. Whoever reading this sad news do not worry about me, instead please join with me to pray for the sheep with pure loving heart. I am trying to upload a photo of her and me being together for you, if I can find one. I hope someone had taken a nice photo.